_{February 14, 2015}

Steel and blood because steel is the only reason I can possibly bare all of the pain that I feel

I know I bleed, I cut my hand to see- 

and my flesh made of steel didn’t even feel

The pain in my heart is just too much.. 

Can’t you see?

I am steel

That is how I walk out with my chin up 

Laugh like I have never cried

I smile, but it doesn’t look tired

and pretend that my joy is real, but- 

I know I bleed 

Cause my heart cannot possibly be- 

whole with this pain that I feel 

So I am steel and blood, 

but you knew the deal was sealed with my blood when I told you that you were all I needed to go on with my life 

My silent permission- 

do with me as you like 

but really? Stab me with a knife? 

And I gave you the satisfaction of knowing 

I had become but a human being who felt and hurt and cried with every thud 

Thud.

Thud.

Thud…

Like your words stabbing my heart

And now, I cannot feel

 with this heart made of steel

Your words and actions which shouted louder? I knew I was blinded by love 

but deaf? so now I’m a loner

Deaf or mute, 

dumb…. 

Dumb? 

I  think I’m dumb because when one loses their eyesight, the other senses are more alive 

so why are mine now numb

I was dumb to ignore the words my brain had spoken

When I let my heart do the thinking 

Unqualified, incapable 

When I walked into ur arms,

The ones which once made me feel safe 

And then the reason I looked anorexic 

You make me sick

Steel and blood, because flesh is fragile

These scars have formed an amour of steel but i still bleed

Everyone’s victim just got tired so the steel buried it deep within, 

And when I misbehave, I’m inhumane 

But which human can possibly endure what I have seen and felt, 

I have cried blood because of you,

You just came to maim 

But I am alive so I know that- 

I am made of Steel with Blood 

Sigil